People will tell you that third births are a wild card. They can be unpredictable and unique. I knew that on an intellectual level, but couldn’t help but imagine this birth as being a carbon copy of Ellie’s homebirth. I tried to visualize how this birth could be any different from Ellie’s birth, but ultimately I couldn’t wrap my mind around it and would wind up anticipating the same script for “how things will happen.”
The night before I went into labor, my mom and I spent the evening shopping at a large “Just Between Friends” sale. The sale was a collaboration of consigned baby items. We spent a lot of our shopping wishing we knew if this baby was a girl or boy. But we also joked that at least baby hadn’t arrived yet, and I was capable of being out and about to do some last minute bargain hunting.
At the sale I ran into a few people I know from LLL and amazed everyone with my still-pregnant state. I’d missed LLL earlier in the week and folks had just surmised that I “must have had that baby by now.” If only they knew.
The sale ran late and my mom dropped me off at my house around ten-ish. Mike was still up; he had rented a hunting game from blockbuster and was enjoying his virtual safari. Spurred on by my own pent up energy, I decided that I’d start a new craft project and sew together a soft structured baby carrier for the new babe. I worked on the carrier until 1:00 a.m. when I realized how late it was, and knew I needed to get some rest for the next day. It didn’t help that I was feeling really achy and uncomfortable. Crawling into bed I noted that I had officially reached 41 weeks of pregnancy.
Mike came to bed around 2:00 a.m. and proceeded to be a space hog. I tried to sleep but couldn’t get comfortable. Tossing and turning and moaning about my hips hurting. Finally, at 4:30 a.m. I gave up resting and decided to be up for the day. It was becoming apparent that I was, indeed, having some regular contractions. In hopes that maybe “this is it” I wandered downstairs to sit at the computer and time them. I wanted a better gauge on their frequency.
The contractions ranged from every three to seven minutes. They never were exactly “regular” but at least they kept coming. After an hour of timing the contractions I knew that I was likely facing the real deal.
Taking the advice of a friend, I decided to take a bath and slow things down. I figured that if I was having just prodromal labor, the bath might provide me with some respite and even allow me to go rest. If, instead, it was labor… then at least I would be refreshed. After the bath, I was even more resolved that “today would be the day.” I woke Mike around 6:00-ish and asked him to keep me company. We also decided, not too long after I woke Mike, to call my folks and tell them to come on over. We knew the girls would be up shortly, and the extra help would be wonderful.
We held off calling the midwives until 9:20 and in the meantime Mike and my Dad put plastic sheeting under the birth trough and we frantically washed some sheets to put on the bed as the “messy” sheets.
Along with our midwife we also called Lynsey Stone, my birth photographer. We warned her that I was in labor, and we were surprised to hear that she was currently attending another birth in a nearby town! Two births in one day! She asked us to call her back as soon as the midwife had an opportunity to check me. That way she’d have a gauge on who was further along and more likely to deliver first.
Betty (C.N.M.) and Denise (Birth Assistant) arrived around ten a.m. and monitored me with the Doppler. They also checked my blood pressure and listened to the baby. Then Betty asked if she could do an internal exam to check dilation. After which she declared I was at a seven! Only about 60% effaced, but things were looking promising
Mike called Lynsey back and she made the determination to head over our way. The woman she was currently with was only at a 4, and we figured the odds were that I would birth first. I joked with Mike that “it’s a race!”
During this time I spent most of my laboring in the bedroom on the birth ball. Rocking my hips and leaning against the foot of the bed. Mike had filled the tub and, despite wanting to get into the water, I kept waiting for things to get intense enough that I’d need the break.
I’m not saying the contractions weren’t strong. It’s just that they were really manageable. Although, I was surprised and dismayed to find that this time around I was experiencing strong back labor. It is not something that I have ever experienced before. Betty sensed that I was feeling the contractions in my lower back and she asked me several times if I needed some counter pressure. I determined, however, that I could manage fine on my own for at least a while longer.
Lynsey arrived and pretty soon everything settled into a quiet pace. Mike, Mom, Lynsey, Betty and Denise were there with me. Chatting about labor and discussing birth photography. Taking breaks every couple minutes while I rocked through another contraction. I asked Betty about her opinion about me getting in the water, and she encouraged me to trust my instincts. I made the decision, at 11:30 a.m., to get into the birth tub. Knowing that it would not be much longer before baby would make his/her arrival.
Just like all my previous births, I found the water incredibly relaxing. Between contractions I just allowed my body to float and my muscles to experience full relaxation. The difference this time, though, was that the water didn’t seem to be helping my contractions nearly as much as I remembered it helping with DD2. With each contraction my back would begin to ache and I’d experience sharp pains. Betty suggested that I start adding a little counter-push against the pain and immediately I felt the contractions shift into a more manageable rush.
One thing I kept thinking was that if I could just get on my hands and knees, my back would feel better. I tried a few contractions in the tub while on hands and knees and was disappointed that –although they did help the contractions- it made resting between each contraction difficult and involved. I began to feel a really strong urge to get out of the tub. My mom and Mike headed downstairs to check on lunch and Lynsey went with them to eat. At 12:45 p.m. I asked Denise and Betty to help me out of the tub. Holding my hands they helped me out of the water. In that exact moment I was hit by the hardest contraction yet. My feet buckled and I found myself leaning against Denise and sitting on the edge of the trough.
Betty assured me that the added gravity right out of the tub always made that first out of water contraction harder. She helped me to my feet and to the restroom where I emptied my bladder and then I made my way back to the birth ball. By the time I got back to the birth ball I had decided I wasn’t going to get back in the water. The gravity pulling on me during each contraction actually felt beneficial and I just couldn’t imagine getting back in the trough.
It was such a stark contrast from my labor with Ellie where I could not have imagined getting out of the water. This time I wanted only dry land. I sat on the birth ball, a chux pad between me and the ball, and I leaned against the foot of the bed. Rocking through the contractions and eventually holding onto Mike and pulling against him as each rush rose and receded. Betty stood behind me and as each contraction began she applied strong counter pressure to my hips. Squeezing them in what she called “winging it.” Pushing on my hips and causing them to open with each contraction.
She reminded me to breath deep and push out with each breath. Reaching down with each exhale all the way to baby.
I started to feel baby move further into my pelvis, but was overwhelmed by how much harder this labor was compared to the last labor. I began to wonder if maybe I couldn’t do it after all and that maybe I should just take a break for a couple hours. I was feeling really tired and needed Mike’s assurance me that I really could do it and that there wasn’t going to be a two hour break.
This is it.
I squeezed his hands and I used Betty’s guidance to lower my shoulders, lower my chin, and breath deep.
I knew that the doubt that I was feeling was a clear indicator of transition. And I was able to rationalize with myself that these feelings I was having were very normal and healthy. Betty could sense how tired I was emotionally and she asked me if it would help to know my dilation. Did I want to be checked?
I agreed that knowing how far I had to go would really help. But first I needed to go to the bathroom.
So at 12:55 Mike walked me into the bathroom and I sat down. Immediately, not even a breath into sitting I was enveloped in another contraction and could feel my stomach clench down. Pushing on its own accord against baby. Betty, who was standing in the door way, immediately came over and sounded a bit startled when she declared, “There’s the baby! The baby’s right there! We need you to get down off the toilet.”
I knew she was right. I could feel the baby on the cusp of birth. But I also knew that I wasn’t going ANYWHERE. I didn’t want to. I refused the idea outright.
Another strong contraction pushed down over me and I grabbed against Mike to stable myself. Lifting a little off the toilet and allowing my body to push. Betty very clearly directed me to at least come down off the toilet. Reminding me that “You do not want this baby to be birthed in the toilet.”
I staunchly refused and experienced yet another pushing contraction.
I could see it on Mike’s face that he didn’t know what to do. Should he allow me to birth where I declared was “right” or should he swoop me up and make me move? In fact, I could see that same thought reflected on everyone’s face. Betty assured me that I didn’t have to go to the bed. That all she needed was for me to at least move forward off the toilet and we could birth right there in the bathroom.
I told her I didn’t know how I was going to move. And she confidently declared that I would have no problem moving. So in a Herculean effort I rose to my feet and realized that I could, indeed, move and I was capable of making it all the way to the bedroom. Rather than stop. I just went. Straight to bed. Sort of half sitting, half reclining. One leg up and the other on the floor. Mike got behind me to hold me up and another contraction hit. I felt the awful searing of the ring of fire and nearly gave up. Deciding that living in pseudo birth limbo was better than experiencing perineum pain.
Betty encouraged me to place my hands at the outlet and I could feel my baby’s head, half birthed. Resolving within myself that I really could do this, I pushed as hard as I could and then just kept pushing. I felt baby’s head birth and the room gasped as Betty declared that baby was coming “in caul.” No sooner was the announcement made when the shoulders emerged. I reached down quickly and slipped my hands under her as the bag of waters broke and she slid into my arms. My hands under baby’s shoulders, I brought my beautiful babe up to my chest.
Amazed at the baby’s size I lifted baby up a little and declared to the world, “It’s a girl!”
Another daughter.
What a moment of wonder, surprise, and confidence.
I asked mom to bring in the girls so they could meet her sister and we cooed, cuddled and laughed at her perfect-ness.
It was at this point that my mom cut the cord and I birthed the placenta. Betty took time to show us the little home where Baby Girl had spent the last 41 weeks of her life. There was a little bit of calcification, but for the most part it was a strong bag. It would have to be to not tear until after the baby’s birth!
They say it’s lucky to be born in the caul.
I feel just blessed. Period.
The minutes following are a blur of emotion, delight, and birthing haze. I swung around to be in a better position on the bed and immediately our new daughter latched on to nurse. On her charts it states she “nursed vigorously.” Not an understatement.
Not to long after the birth, Lynsey had to leave. Her other laboring mother was at an 8 and it was time for her to go record that birth.
The newborn screening was done 45 minutes after birth. Little Ainslee Marie weighed 10 lbs 4 oz and measured 20 ¾ inches long. Her head and chest circumference was 14 inches and her time of birth was 1:08 p.m. on September 14th, 2007.
The only significant thing worth mentioning is that she did experience some facial bruising, but seems to have recovered completely from it all. I also experienced heavy bleeding, and accepted a shot of pitocin as well as fundal massage. By 4:00 o’clock I had done two potty breaks and my bleeding had slowed considerably. Bidding good-bye, the birth attendants left.
Mike and Dad emptied the birth pool and then we snuggled down for the rest of the day. We gave Sarrah and Ellise framed pictures of when they were newborns and my Dad and Mike read Psalms 139 as a devotional. My Dad said a prayer of blessing for Ainslee and Myself; anointing us with oil. And then he said a prayer for Sarrah, Ellise, and Mike, with the same anointing.
Not long after that, my parents went home and we fell asleep for the night